Unmistaken Clarity !

Its quite safe to say..

That it took me 21 years to realise that i have nothing more to say than to listen to myself and others.

It’s called the state of stuckness that people know by many names. “Zen” , “Nebulous Peace”, and even an extension of “nirvana”. Lets see what i gather from this now onwards.

 (heard this song and liked the lyrics..)
drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
‘Cause it’s all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you’re writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you’ve no idea what you’re like
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It’s alright
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown !!

So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it’s so amazing here
It’s all right
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
(The music is quite sissy !!)

I was told this by someone …..”shut the f*** up i know you better than you do !” a few days ago (in a compromising state ), and i could not be more thankful for that today !

Sometimes its just the smallest of sentences that can pre-empt your thought process.  I just had to listen to what was told to me after that, and believe me i was listening after that. Although i think that talk is cheap, but at that time it was all i could afford from you.

Your outburst was justified and i apologise for my stubborn nature, all in all i am back ! thanks to all of you….

Its such a beautiful feeling !!! I tell you, try once before calling me names or suggesting anything. I learnt this two years ago.

…okay so it goes like this. Find a huge occasion in which EVERYONE is involved, all of the people around you and everyone you know, let them just go attend that function or ceremony or something. (It would be only then that you won’t be remembered). Turn off the lights and listen to ur favorite songs LOUD….and just take a look at your self. I find myself filled with so much of things that i did this quite often. The whole idea of looking back serves as a test of your decisions and their implications. I most often see people,then i see my embarrasing moments my goof ups, my actions ,my losses, my anger, my ego and some more people. The whole thought process goes on and on untill you see yourself in them , and actually see yourself with your daemons, good ones and bad. At that point i generally can see how different everyone is , how vain is the effort to communicate and even when everyone has a different protocol of communication we still do !!!

The train of thoughts then gushes into the present and you see the current events , relationships and friends in a refreshingly new light. I call that my blue light . The blue light actually pleases you and puts you in a more embracing position, it tells youwhy you spend so much enrgy and time of yours on those close to you, it also gives a humbling taste.

I usually find this as an antidote to the fatigue that comes with the job of being well myself ! After the rendezvous with the blue light , i again fall in love with the excursion called life !

….okay now you can give me your advice, if you have a better solution.

p.s: The process is patented, blue light and nebuluos peace are trademarks of F.F ! and my nebuluos peace doesn’t allow me the use of blue light anymore

Never have multiple personalities if you don’t have the heart for it !!!

Xynia X, 3rd oct : Our Xynia X correspondent reports that there has been an outburst of split and multiple personalities disorder. People were found brooding, apologising and imposing themselves on other victims. The ones who were affected seem to be very disoriented with nowhere to turn to. “We have got to escape this madness!!!(other noises censored)” shouts one of the victim while others kept on crying on her.

We interviewed venerable Forlorn Farceur, asking him for explanations. He says that even he had this state and is adamant on not calling it a disease. He says that this is a blessing in disguise, one can benefit from this excersize of thoughts and conflicts. Xynia X needed this kind of unification after the great depression.

As we don’t always believe what he says , our spy spotted him healing over four xynians. The eyewitness detective had this to say : “i could not believe my eyes, he just stood there silently. One by one they came to him and he just listened then smiled said a few words and they were cured…no more crying and despair !!! then i witnessed all of them leaving Forlorn Farceur without saying good bye or thank you, such was the elation and ecstasy….and then i saw him leaving too, but what a stern face he had…nothing moved him, even i was crying for them and him !!….”(the detective later succumbed to fits of depression, Mr. Farceur helped him too but minutes after he sued us for damaging his public image)

We will keep on updating you the situation and the new developments. Officials are denying everything.

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