Archive for March 2006
Its Me !!
NEW AND IMPROVED !!
Well , this is how i look when i am walking !!
he he….just kidding .
Just wanna show who is behind all these ramblings.
(Changi airport S’pore )
XY&Z and the stale fish…. Chapter one (part 1)
(Disclaimer : The thoughts and storyline are not entirely uncorrelated to the real world and life as we see it. The only difference is that i view these things in an overtly obtuse fashion. Please feel free to imagine and fill up the holes with whatever wild explanation you find fit. )
XY&Z ! and the Stale Fish
Chapter One : Xynia and all things Xy and z.
Ah! there you are ….i wasn’t expecting you so soon. So you are the stale fish that people were talking about for the past ten days, Xynian of course. Confused? Don’t be i will help you fit in. I am Brihovax Avinyora, the pretender. I am the shadow of Xy, the supreme lord and creator of everything. You might notice that Xynia is named after him but quite contrary and ironic he created Xynia first and then rechristened himself as Xy as the first Xynians that he created made fun of his original name “Joe”.
A typical Xynian is an entity who may have limbs more or equal than two, each according to Xy’s whims. Incidentally after the creation of first few Xynians and their subsequent ridiculing of Xy’s original name , they were made targets to a new fashion statement of Ext Ralimb Osis (an ancient tactic of using fake limbs to scare an opponent in ancient Mesopotamia) as a means to get back at them for making fun of him. These Xynians have each a unique ability , most have an incredible capability to withstand humiliation and pain. They have pain and suffering competitions on Xynia annually. If you are interested in it, tickets are available on a last come first serve basis.
All Xynians are level 3 entities, i am a level two. Xy or Joe , i like to call him Joe, is a level one entity. Actual number is not known but legends created by me have it that there were or are around 13 Joes out there, that means 13 level one entities. These entites or Joes are of similar nature. If one was to sum up all the capabilities and traits of these Joes and divide that by thirteen, one would find out that it will turn out to be that of exactly one Joe, hence the term average Joe. The actual mathematics behind this wonder is under research. Many believe that whence one adds all the quantities remain still but as the divide operation is done the quantities readjust themselves to cause the result.
I understand that you ask me that if there are 13 Joes out there then which one am i talking about? Right? The answer is very obvious , but not to a fish , since all the Joes average out to exactly Joe, it means that mathematically it does not matter whichever i may be referring to. Frankly nobody in this cosmos cares about which one we refer to, as generally average Joe is not the topic of discussion. As far as they are concerned they know that average Joe exists and does what he needs to, besides that nobody wants to know further of him.
So, now i think that you have a pretty good idea about what Xy is and who he can be. Lets now get acquainted with Xynia. Xynia is an idea, Xynia is an entity , Xynia is everywhere and nowhere,Xynia is everything that Z wanted but could not get.I shall introduce you to Z when the time comes. Anyways, Xynia is the place where every fish wants to swim to , Xynia is not perceivable to everybody. Let me remind you that fish are level 23 entities and are thus by nature incapable of understanding Xynia. You are here because of an emergency and by the collective request of some three and a half level life forms. You are here to know of your being and existence rather than the nothingness that you fish all seem to care a lot about. So Xynia was created by Joe to serve a purpose. The purpose was to harbour and cultivate beings and life forms greater than three. The reason would still not be clear to you now as you do not know the background. How could you ? You are a fish !! …contd
(I’ll be publishing this book very soon so any suggestions are wholeheartedly unwelcome! comment if you please)
Collective Junk …
(disclaimer : i think you should avoid reading this particular blog for the lack of direction and incoherent thoughts involved. It also is not of the same nature as my earlier texts.)
Overrated is the bliss attached with ignorance as is the Mona Lisa. Please spare me the grilling as i am from those category of people who do indeed show interest in art and took Art and Technology as the first choice HU course !! (the ending to that episode was a happy one).
The lull after the storm and before it has this capability to carry you with it and persuade the flow of will with itself. Easily understood as the ever postponement of every work due to pure and sheer force of future commitments and bygone entourage of work.
I would refrain from calling this as cowardice as it has nothing to do with lack of courage, rather it is the failure of build up of courage which actually leads to driving force behind every action. It is that initial buildup of emotions which makes you call all your forces to regroup and makes you get off your arses and do something. Many call this motivation, but tell me this do you need motivation to get up and wash your face ? Even if you call it compulsion , i ask what is compulsion but not the collective buildup of precisely those emotions lack of which makes us complacent. Ah! I have the word now… complacent.!!
A friend once narrated to me a theory known as “Morphogenetic Field Theory”(In my circles you would at once know this friend , and his famous prophecies). So interesting are the implications of this in current light that one cannot look away from it. Loosely put, it says, any biological phenomenon has a higher probability of happening once it has already happened. Put it the other way round and you have lower probability of a never happened event.
So, bunk one morning and the probability of doing it again the next day is a little bit higher. Have no sleep one day and the next day you are having a duel with the sandman !
Sleep during one lecture and that particular lecture is much more inviting your REM presence. When i think of applying this to myself and my experiences i find it shockingly predictive. This semester has been a hallmark of non attendance and belittled attitude towards lectures. Dream and nocturnes aside i have barely attended 3 lectures per course and i assure you that each bunk in that period has been nothing short of a battle between my conscious and he he … unconscious. Every single time the valiant conscious was defeated by clever tactics like “health issues”, “too much work”, “worthiness of prof”, “attendance strictness” and what not. And in the times when the poor fellow does win i am filled with second thoughts even while i am in the damned lecture theater.
Anyhow the ensuing guilt is the only barrier between my indecision the next morning, the determination or compulsion or the buildup of emotions simply fails when i have to get up in the morning. Don’t make the mistake of taking me to be a lazy person, i am known to work continuously for days without sleep but then the freedoms i give myself are too liberal for my own sake.
Thankfully the effect of such a defeat at the hands of sleep is minimal. I do not understand how exactly but every single minor started as hell and turned out not to be of that origin. My turning up at exactly halfway between the paper led to a very unexpected result. My not studying for a certain subject led me to a respectable total in that also. Call it luck , but it is out there. My submittal to many vices in this period apparently has not taken any effect on anything in my life.
Bottom line of this excreta of thoughts is that i think i am able to break this chain of events and hence increasing the probability of me getting out of this loop. Ironic isn’t it ?
